No Safety Net
I don't know... maybe... resigning from a job with no replacement and no savings... or get married with no house, no savings, no and job... or bet all your money... whatever.
Have you ever done something that seemed so unreasonable and so seemingly stupid because it seems you're risking it all?
I have been brought up by practical parents. They told me to buy a house and save enough money so that when rainy day comes, I'll have something to get me by. They encouraged me to invest on a house instead of going to other countries. They feel that traveling can wait but owning your house shouldn't wait. I need to have the certainty of having a home to go home to when I get old.
Although they never said it, they were against my first relationship because they knew I was earning more than the guy.
I live by most of the values they instilled and I don't really regret anything. I don't know if it is because the suggestions they've made ended up being the better choice or because I simply am not the kind that regrets things. I am pretty good at moving on. I am good at surviving.
But there are some thing I have been wanting to do but couldn't do because I still have those philosophies instilled in me.
A safety net is always important. That's what I know for sure.
Well it's always easy to have that safety net, guddamit. If it is that easy, don't you less people would be battered in broken because of the masochistic decisions they have made?
If it is easy to have a safety net, do you think women will willingly and wholeheartedly fall in love with a guy with no certainty whether the man will be faithful to her and eventually marry her?
If it is easy to have an effin' safety net, don't you think people wouldn't grab one before doing anything?
Who the hell wants pain, for crying out loud?
That's what I've come to realize because there are a lot of things I have been dying to do but couldn't because I still need to do some things just in case that didn't work out.
For the most part, I've avoided the bruises. So, logic dictates that I stay with the formula.
At 34, I know that much.
At 34, I will go against what have gotten me through.
At 34, I am about to do something stupid. Really, it doesn't make sense at all.
By the end of the first quarter next year, I'll be leaving the country to start a new life somewhere else. I don't have a job waiting for me. All I will have is this business which I can operate from wherever. Like any business, sometimes it's good, sometimes it's bad.
It's absolutely stupid because I have good things going on right here. I have a good family. I am starting a TV show (I'm not acting) and I am getting new clients but I am going to drop all those things and I am leaving.
I will have no family there, just a few friends who are also living their own lives.
Whether it is in the form of what I expect it or something else, f$%# knows.
How about you? Is there anything you have been wanting to do but couldn't because you have no safety net?
More importantly, do you think you will ever have the courage to do it?