When Quitting May Not Be a Bad Thing

I have a lot of bad habits but quitting is not one of them.

I am not sure if it's something my parents taught me or something innate but I know that when I start something, I finish it. The end product may end up bad but I won't quit until it's done.

That's probably how I ended up staying with my first boyfriend for almost 7 years. I just wanted to see it through, make sure every stone is turned and every option taken.

Now, I know I should have quit the first time I realized and felt he wasn't the kind of guy I could spend the rest of my life with. I should have moved on because now I know there were lots of opportunities I let go, people I could have dated and things I could have done.

However, I know that now only because I knew how it ended.

That's what's bugging me now. When do you know when it's time to quit?

When I focus something, I get so focused that I am able to block out everything else. I exhaust all resources and, often, I go beyond what I think I can do to get to the goal. I don't have a high success rate. I fail more than I care to admit. I fail so often that I actually do get a shock when I actually do succeed.

I don't dwell on my failures a lot. I guess it's a defense mechanism. My tendency is to move on as fast as I could but on days like this, when my body is filled with MSG (and I don't like it), I do something I rarely do, I think about the past.

It's an odd thing, actually. It's like an out of body experience. I feel like I am watching someone else and I see lots of moments when that person could have explored something else with greater chances of success. I see lots of times when the supposed "trying" was actually nothing but a waste of time.

I see that there are lots of times when the end didn't make the means worth it by a long shot. It wasn't just my first relationship but a lot of other things I have done. I am where I am because of the decisions I've made in the past but what if quitting some of those things I pursued in the end would have pushed me to a better place now?

When do you quit?


Popular posts from this blog

Do You Wish You Are Younger?

Jabbawockeez, Ben Chung and America's Best Dance Crew

30 Reasons I'm Still Single in my 30s